The diagnosis really turned my world upside down. I was a single mom, 48 years old and told I had 6 months to live by an Oncologist at the hospital that I was a a Registered a Nurse In The ER. I paniked and had a lawyer come to the hospital on the second day so I could sign my kids over to my sister. The doctor’s I worked for transferred me over to a City of Hope and the Oncologist there told me he had examined me from head to toe and no where was there an expiration date, He told me about a Clinical Trial for the first MM medication, Thalidomide, so I took a leap of faith and found a Hope! Along with this he put me on an anti depression medication. I began fighting and a year later a SCT then Remission! My faith in God carried me through and my faith in my medical team with God is why I am still here, 18 years later! Hope my story helps you! Love, Marcia

I'm finding that I never really dealt with my emotions through this whole treatment process. I broke down and cried the other day and couldn't stop. I finally got a grip on myself, but I find myself crying more often. I'm getting my SCT May 15 if I pass my colonoscopy. I've had diahrrea since the end of March.
Nobody knows why. All of this scares me. I'm afraid cancer will come back some place else. Last time I was at the doctor I asked for Xanax, so don't ever be ashamed to ask for help. And take it from me, get those emotions out. Hang in there. I highly suggest finding a church and asking Jesus to be your personal savior.

I hear ya i went from diying to crying to prayer than friends and family than antidepressants with adavan... much better. Fight the good have your circle call on you daily or call them positive people. Your going to beat this and we are going to help. Your team Bob k

In Buddhism you learn to embrace impermanence and focus on the present without regretting the past or worrying about the future. You will continue on regardless of what happens to your physical body... it's all good!

The high dose steroids certainly don't help anxiety